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Confidence

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Yesterday and today I’ve really committed myself to maintaining a positive attitude, no matter what’s going on in my life. Getting in the Word has helped so much, and I’ve had so many great times in prayer. I’m feeling really optimistic, and God is to praise for this. He’s been working in me in so many amazing ways, and I can’t wait to see what all He has in store for me in the future. I just pray that this positive change will continue and carry over into all aspects of my life. I always say I’ve changed and that I can change, but this time is different. My girlfriend is struggling with our relationship, and I just pray that she can see this positive change, because I would hate to lose such an amazing blessing… She means so much to me, and I’ve been feeling really positive about our relationship since I’ve been giving everything to God the past couple of days, and I hope that after getting in the Word and praying a bit she’ll feel the same way as I. I miss her so much and I’ve been a jerk towards her, but I’m ready to step it up and be a great positive influence in her life.

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November 5, 2010 at 13:02

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Frustrations

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Last night I was having a great night. I got my history test done and I got to talk to my beautiful girlfriend over skype for a while. For some reason, right as I was getting in bed for the night, a barrage of negative thoughts assaulted me from all sides. I felt like something was trying to eat its way out of my heart. I got so frustrated that I’m back living with my parents, that I’m at community college, that I feel so alone all the time, that I get so discouraged in myself and lose hope so often, and that the first thing I think of when I get upset is to rant to my girlfriend. I know that when I get like this, it’s got to be so discouraging for her. I know that this distance (just a few hundred miles) is as hard for her as it is for me. I know that even though she’s at college with her friends, she still misses me as much as I miss her. It’s just so easy for me to get selfish and go off about stupid stuff. I need to start thinking positively, finding the good in these situations. Yes, I’m living with my parents, but this could be an opportunity to show them that I’m growing up to be a responsible adult! Yes, I’m at community college, but I’m saving my parents a lot of money, and if I get good enough grades, I’ll be transferring in January! Yes, I’m away from my girlfriend, but this is such an opportunity for us to grow in our trust, and to form a really tight emotional bond to each other while we can still focus on the stuff that we as individuals need to accomplish! I guess that’s all for now. I just needed to get all that out there.

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November 3, 2010 at 10:31

Reasons

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Yesterday I found myself struggling with confidence. Confidence in myself, that is. I felt I was failing everyone around me, including myself. Every time I tried to fix something about myself, my relationship, my schoolwork, what have you, something else would go wrong, or I’d come across as weak and vulnerable. This is why I’ve started this blog: as a means of venting about my stress, and hopefully maybe getting some feedback and support! I’d love to be able to express feelings and concerns that other people are experiencing besides just me, and maybe I can even provide support as well! ‘Till next time…

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November 2, 2010 at 17:49

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